I feel overwhelmed by everything. Smile? Just forced… The last few days I’ve been sleeping very badly, I dream every night. I feel the loss, the certainty and most of all the pain. The pain of you not being here anymore. I can only pull myself together and with difficulty to master everyday life. Simple tasks seem insurmountable. I know that time doesn’t heal wounds, it only makes it more bearable. I want to hide, I don’t want to see or hear anything or anyone. I just don’t want anything anymore. When I close my eyes I see your face, hear your voice and feel your embrace. I miss your closeness, I miss your heart.
